Failures and findings

My 2018 held wonderful heights and views but also tearful lows. I felt a tension between what I was trying to do and who I was trying to be. It seemed I’d lost my spark somewhere, the confidence to be my authentic self.

Some days I felt a failure, and others I felt just fine. But the nagging sense that I had taken a position that wasn’t a good fit persisted until – at what felt the perfect moment – an opportunity so well aligned to my skills and priorities opened up.

I worried: Was I running away from frustrations or recognizing the signs I needed to take a different path? But I decided I didn’t really have to prove or defend myself – I just had to be honest about the environment I needed to thrive.

When I talk to college students about career choices and lay out my own winding journey, I see all of the things I’ve learned at each turn. An underlying theme is the desire to be a pollinator between people and ideas, especially the kind that strengthen our community and build capacity for nonprofit organizations and professionals to do their best work.

As I prepare to once again step into a new role, I’ve been reflecting quite a bit. How can I bring my best self to serve others? How can I dig in and put everything into practice?

I was walking and listening to Krista Tippett in conversation with the poet David Whyte and his description of rest so beautifully captured my desire

“Rest is the conversation between what we love to do and how we love to be.”

Whyte goes on to describe this mysterious balance that gives us capacity for a generosity of spirit.

Rested, we are ready for the world but not held hostage by it, rested we care again for the right things and the right people in the right way.

I think it’s a beautiful reflection going into a new year.

Cheers to you – thanks for encouraging me by stopping by this space.

family photo by Ivory House Photography

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  1. Barbara Boose

    We need an Alpine happy hour so you can catch me up on your life!

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